|...now that's real-life :)|
I've been thinking lately....about my life, my home, my ambitions, my hopes, my responsibilities. Somewhere in that list, this blog fits in. In a way it's a part of all of those.
I've been thinking about how my blog has taken a little direction shift in the past 6 months or so... It's been good. I've been doing printables and some other creative inspirational junk. I've had a great response and it's been really wonderful and affirming to share my creativity with you all. But somehow along the road, I have felt myself withdraw. I have a tendency to pull away and keep the "real me" tucked safely back. I struggle with what the purpose of my blog is... some days it feels like "all business" and I don't want that.
I want my blog to be... me. And not in a cliche' kind of way. I want this blog to be me forming a relationship with you (that sounds cheesy, too...but hear me out :) I want to come along side you, share a decorating tip, make you smile, and encourage you as you sift through life. I want you to find me helpful, like a close friend who loans a good book to you.... like a sister-in Christ who speaks the words you were needing to hear...
But I also want to be open and honest in my real daily life with you so that I can be held accountable. You see when I pull back, in real life... just like I have on this blog... I cut the strings of accountability. I have such a tendency to do this. When life gets rocky, confusing, draining... or even when something really amazing happens that's kinda personal, I shrink back. I don't really know why. I guess it's just easier for me... it keeps me from being vulnerable, I suppose.
But we are called to more.. all of us... in life on-line or off. Christ did not bring me here to shut my mouth in fear, laziness, or confusion. But in him, I am made strong and able to do all things! This I know, and I will cling to it :)
So... I will continue designing... continue posting lost of Printables (because I think it's just so much fun!!), but I'm going to try and not hold back my heart from you. So many times I think.. "I should share these thoughts on my blog"... then I don't. Or when life is rough and kinda not the prettiest... I look around at my house and think "I can't post anything... where would I even find a clean spot to take a picture!?" So instead of sharing something "real", I post a Printable... It looks good, I look good, no one is the wiser that my day is a wreck!
Anyway... we are called to encourage each other, open our mouths and speak truth. Life isn't just about me getting through my day... It's about what I can do and say to bring others into a fuller knowledge and a closer relationship with our God and his son, Jesus Christ. Will you join me?