Thoughts on Babies :)
If you've learned anything about me so far, from this blog... you should know: I love the color turquoise, I love vintage junk, and I love all things "baby"! Ever since I was a little girl, all I ever wanted to do was get married and have babies :) ha, ha :) .. that's me. And as a result, I've always been in a hurry to get there. It's a fault for sure... I have a hard time being content in the moment. I wanted to get married at 19... did that. And I wanted to have 4 kids... almost there. From the first months of marriage on through... my thoughts have been largely consumed by planning, having, and raising babies. (It sounds so funny to say :) If you're a mom you probably understand... if not, sorry! ) So here's what I'm getting at: Sadie's 18 mo. old and the thought of baby #4 is quickly becoming a prevailing thought in my head. Problem is - life is crazy right now!!! I should not be pushing this thought right now! But this clock in my head tells me that I have to. I wanted 4, right? and they can't be more than 2 1/2 years apart, right? See all these plans I made a long time ago are superseding everything else. Am I even listening to rational thought? Jeremy? God? Probably not. God help me to slow down and enjoy... be content in this moment. Help me to listen to you... and my husband :) Give me peace... and eventually give me strength for whatever plans you have for me.