I'm cookin'... not food though.  Rather, I'm moving through these days, these hours of my life at a pretty fast clip!  I'm not exactly sure how I get myself into such busy places in life....(shaking head, with baffled look on face)...  Jeremy has always said that I crave chaos.  And that would appear to be true according to the record :)  I suppose it's mainly due to the number of children I have, pregnancy, church responsibilities, homeschooling and my Etsy endeavors.  But hey... isn't that most of us?!  Life is full... and that's mostly a good thing :)  Yet, since I struggle with high expectations for myself,  a strong drive for whatever I deem important, and a stubborn inability to admit when it's too much... I often am left frustrated and overwhelmed crouching in a corner...  I love it and hate it all at the same time.

Oh yeah...and I forgot one other aspect of it all.... I happen to be quite in love with my husband.  All day, throughout my tasks and responsibilities, I'm looking forward to our time together.  You know, after the kids are in bed.... when the dynamic of the home shifts.  I suddenly become a young girl who finally gets to see her boyfriend.  We get to hang out, watch TV, and each junk food :)  I live for that time of day.  It's as if someone pressed a button on the remote control of our lives allowing the speed to fall back out of fast-forward and into a normal enjoyable pace. Suddenly I can breath... I feel content.... I forget about my to-do list and all my responsibilities.  So the hours pass... just like those teenagers that we used to be, we seem to have no rational limit for how late we stay up :)  And, you know what that does.... it compounds the problem of my busyness during the day (Big sigh...).  But how could I choose...one over the other.... the important, essential tasks of the day or my time with my love?   So what do I do?  Cling to the chaos.  I hold on tight, I won't let go of either!  Stubborn? perhaps.

Yet I know, these days will pass.  Life will shift into a different mode... eventually.  But for now I cling to what's important: my God-given assignments to raise and educate my children, keep a home, be a Proverbs 31 business woman, do his work... and be a wife fully devoted to her husband. 

On the days that I'm not sleep deprived  and when I can see the end of the to-do list ... and when I can somehow let the stress and the overwhelmed feeling roll off my back... I realize, I'm living life to the fullest and its absolutely wonderful!

Oh Lord, I pray this prayer so often... because I need your help so much.  Lord give me strength.. physical, emotional, mental... and bless the work of my hands.  Help me to know its all for you.  You've called me to a purpose and you have given me what I need to accomplish it... if I trust in you.  Thank you for that promise.  Help me to be faithful and joyful in my work... all the while, fully devoted to my husband and even more fully devoted to you.

Blessings,

STARTING TO FEEL JOLLY!

First off... let me just say I LOVE Christmas Stationery!!! (big affectionate sigh)...  Secondly...it's less than 2 months till Christmas!! ...completely crazy.  Well, I've been working on Christmas and Winter designs for awhile and I FINALLY got some of it listed on Etsy!  I'm excited to have a chunk of it done, but I've still got so much in the works (big sigh...).  Over the next weeks, I'm going to show you some of the Holiday cheer that I've been cookin' up... so check back often for more tempting Christmas paper goods:  Christmas Cards, Sticker/seals, Mailing Labels, Gift Tags, Winter Scripture Prints, Personalized Stationery products, Mini Jotters, and More!!!   .... Head to Etsy to browse what I've got so far :)



Blessings,


What Happened?

The other day I snapped a few pics of my girls.... Alice's hair was down and she looked so pretty.  She doesn't especially appreciate me taking pictures of her :)  She is anything but a poser... she always looks either awkward or annoyed!  Ahh... but that's my Alice!  None the less, I wanted to get a shot or two of all that pretty hair and safely secure the memory of it.  I was working with her desperately trying to get a pleasant look.... when the image in my view finder made me stop.  I jumped back 4 years.... I could see my Alice, 2 years old, sitting on the couch with sunlight illuminating the pile of curls on top of her head.  She was quite the sight at that age.... petite and precious with dark curly hair that seemed to only accumulate on top of her head, refusing to grown in length on the sides :)  That was my favorite age with her.... she was still an only child and she consumed my world.  I was so proud of her.

But there in my dining room currently stood my 6 year old... tall and fair with long curly dark hair that no longer fell in ringlets over her warm brown eyes.  She was still striking and I was still so proud of her.... but she wasn't my baby anymore.  I was overwhelming with the passing of time and all that had changed since then.  Where did the time go?

I know this is a common feeling as a mom of growing kids... but sometimes it hits you so oddly, that you feel as if you've jumped into another life.  I can hardly remember what it felt like to only have one child, to not feel exhausted and overwhelmed continually... to be able to focus on the joys, accomplishments, needs, and struggles of an individual child.

Yet life is good... and it goes on.  Each years multiplies the joys and struggles through the scope of multiple children.  Life get more complicated with each year yet increasingly rich. The reality of the dream is so much deeper than it could have ever possibly been dreamed.  And for this I am thankful... thankful to a Heavenly Father who holds our lives and our dreams in his hands.  He know the days to come and turns our hopes into a deeper, more amazing reality that we could have ever hoped for..... IF... it is in Him.  Without him that disparity between what I dreamed of, expected, imagined...and the current reality would seem disappointing... but in him life in all it's complexity is joy. Alice is no longer my only baby... she's a big girl and shortly I will have THREE other little ones!  But this is where I want to be.... I don't know where the time went, but I'm thankful that I'm here.

Thank you Lord for where you've brought me... thank you that life is rich and complex, even if it feels overwhelming at times.  As hard as life can be, I trust you with these days and the days ahead.  You have brought me this far and you will see me through.  Help me to never long for the past, but allow you to give me joy for today and hope for tomorrow.


Blessings and Joy for today!

Baby Bump

I took some pictures of myself this afternoon.... wow, that's challenging :)  But I got it done, and I think I will look back on them someday and enjoy the sentimental feeling they create.  I just wish I could be in two places at once and actually take pictures of myself.... so could capture all the images and angles I can see in my head!  Oh, well... these will have to do!

On a side, note... baby's kicks are getting nice and strong :)  I'm not a huge fan of pregnancy in general, but am just loving the late night acrobatics of my little guy.  It makes it all worth it...   Also, we finally really decided on a name for him!  We thought we had figured it out the night before the sono, but once we knew it really was a boy our tastes seemed to change!  Very odd...  BUT, he is now named (with the approval of Alice and Elsie) and I can now begin to affectionately call him by name as wiggles around inside of me :)  Yay :)


Blessings to you on this beautiful Sunday,

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